i am happy. and yet i make remarks that could (potentially) make me unhappy later. lifelifelife. over. but whatever. i don't understand my compulsion to make submissive, peaceful remarks like, "no, i'm nothing special" or "wait a few months and see if you still want to be around me".
what
the
hell?
am i trying to drive people away from me? i suspect this is one of my greater flaws. underestimating myself, and my interaction with others. must think before hitting send button. yes.
in other news, my life as a new college student has begun swimmingly. i'm almost surprised to find that my lack of motivation is as persistent as a lightning storm in june. but not really. i guess i still don't feel like putting in the extra effort. maybe school isn't for me. and apparently every job place ever decided it doesn't want to employ an average blond girl with sharp wit and passion. oh, right, i'm a carbon copy. sucks living in a college town. no jobs anywhere. i'm sucking up my life savings just trying to pay rent for a little house with a lot of animals.
maybe i'll move back home with my mom. but something's telling me i don't want to bear witness to her recently reborn sex life. eeeeew. of course. i can't afford anything else.
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